Trudging My Way Forward

Mama

2012-01-23T11:06:00.000-08:00

I miss Mama. I don't why why tonight I suddenly thought of everything she has done for me which promptly brought on three buckets of tears. Distance is never good for me and my family emotionally. As I've said, I've never been away for long stretches of time and never felt the urge to do so if not for the fact that I need to earn more. Thinking about them, especially my mom, like this is not good at 3 in the morning because I am feeling the urge to solve this. I vow from today that I will only stay overseas to work and once I saved up enough to give us a comfortable life back home, I will go back and stay with my family and take care of my mom and pop. Being away from her for good is unthinkable since I am busting my ass off trying to make sure that we'll have a good life so not seeing them enjoy it is pointless.

Ok enough drama for tonight, I'll go grab an Advil for this headache caused by the inexplicable urge to bawl.

DEEPER IN YOU

2012-01-08T04:26:00.000-08:00

I've read a lot of things (books, stuff on the net, the Bible) and heard a lot of people say that one way to let off stress is to think about all the things in your life that you are most thankful for. So since I'm in the mood for some melodramatic thoughts tonight, let me lay all that down:

1. Thankful for finding my way back to a relationship with God. To be honest, this is always a work-in-progress for me since I am never the nice girl who never speaks ill of anybody and I always falter in leaving all the control up to Him. Getting into a church that tirelessly remind me to serve God by serving His nation proved to be a big help and hopefully this year, I can be a better Christian and also a better person.

2. For SG friends (Lani, Ray, Kuya Jay and Ate Jules). I've only met every one of them here but they have proven time and again that I am lucky to have a family away from home. I wouldn't say that we have a perfectly harmonious relationship with each other but I appreciate the fact that they, in turn, treat me as family.

3. Family and friends back home. They might not be physically here but the continuous support and understanding I got from them helped me tremendously during the toughest days. They are the people I can run back to during the most dreadful circumstances and be sure that I will be accepted and loved.

4. And lastly, all the bad things that happened to me. They might have crushed me temporarily this past year but I can't help but still be thankful. Grateful because they made me realize that failing at something is not the end of the world. It is a truly humbling experience and I got to know who among the people around me, are the real ones.

To end this drama, quoting Sigmund Freud, "One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful". I'm not even in a point where I can say that I am comfortable and thriving but thinking about the people and things I enumerated above made every struggle worth my while.

So 2011...

2012-01-08T03:58:00.000-08:00

That title ^ is horrible but I can't think of anything profound or catchy right now and I won't even try. Past few months have been a whirl of tears, of laughter, of sweating and anxieties. Scratch that, the whole of 2011 have been a complete emotional roller coaster ride for me. There are up-there-in-the-heavens time, down in the sewers, a lot of lost-in-translation moments, and floating aimlessly in the streets of Singapore. Yes, I made it a year (and few months now) of working in a foreign land without any family or old friends, of not going back home for vacation (as some are used to do since SG is only 3 hours away from RP). The nerd who was never away from home for long stretches of time, and doesn't know how to cook a decent meal, IS STILL ALIVE.

It was all a blur to me. One minute I was contemplating resignation from the company I've been with in Manila and the next, I'm moving to Singapore, facing the tough recruiter's life I've had with the first company I've been with, and now, enduring yet another challenge. My stomach's been twisted up in knots and have had its share of too much acidity and the occasional butterflies this past year, it's a surprise it is still there (though not that helpful in digestion since I gained a lot of poundsss). But yeah, I made it through 2011 and living a few days of 2012 which I wouldn't be in without the help of a few friends who made sure I wouldn't jump off Marina Bay Sands (what a way to go..), the support and understanding of my family back in Manila and my renewed faith in my Protector, Healer, Redeemer, Deliverer, Saviour and most importantly, my Best Friend.

Quarter-Life Crisis

2011-09-03T08:53:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the year again where the blues crop up and sometimes, even the strange thoughts that keep me very much awake at 3 a.m. (Is this really just once a year because I've been having them on and off for the past year? Hmm, interesting..) In less than two months, I'll be 25. I know, mababaw, to be terrified when I haven't even hit my 40s, even the 30s. This could be a pressure from seeing a lot of peers my age seeming to know what they want out of life and working their way towards it. Or probably having a ton of friends getting married, giving birth, celebrating their anniversaries with their better halves? I'm not sure. But what I'm certain about is this feeling of panic, like I'm tied to a chair to watch the sun go up and down everyday and do nothing about anything. Even in the mornings, I feel like I wouldn't be able to accomplish something worthy for the whole day. Depression? I don't think so. The past year has been such an emotional roller coaster for everything to come down to a bad case of the blues.

I've been trying to step back and look at the whole situation to see where I made the wrong turn. And for the life of me, I don't know where to look. Why am I in this situation? Didn't I really have any choice back then? Even before I started working, I already know that I have big shoes to fill. While everyone is biding their time waiting for their preferred jobs, I started diving into a mind-numbing work that stops the creative thought processes. The only important thing there is that it paid the bills, it put food in the table, never mind the fact that I was burning my stomach lining from pretending for it to be something bigger than it really is. I moved on, spent another 3 years and counting in doing something that I thought is a step up from the past one which in turn, brought me here in this foreign city and I now realize that this is what I've been trying to avoid my whole life.

Would things have been different if I waited and pursued a less mundane life? Unfortunately, I didn't have that privilege, the waiting, because there are people waiting for me to provide a living. Don't get me wrong, I love my family and I've been doing whatever I can to make sure that we have a half-decent life. This is also where the problem lies. I fuck up and they go down with me.

I want to just take that leap, start fresh, consequences be damned but I love my family too much to mess up. Being locked up in this soap box is getting old. I desperately need to reinvent myself or at least focus on another thing that would make me... better. And contrary to what people around me are suggesting, it's not the addition of a romantic angle. I don't need to add another complication and burden him with my emotional excesses.

So now, what to do? A big chunk is to probably look back and rediscover what it is that I enjoy doing and am passionate about. After channeling my energy into doing whatever it is, I'm positive that everything else will follow. Come to think of it, being happy boils down to enjoying what you're doing with your time, earning a living out of it is just icing on the cake.

The funny thing is, I don't know if everything I just wrote made a lick of sense.

2011-09-02T11:37:00.000-07:00

I'm dead scared and worried. Is what I'm planning to do, the right step?

Stuck in a moment..

2011-05-26T18:48:00.001-07:00

Stuck

in enjoying Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays and in hating Sunday evenings.

in the long-standing drama of everyday work-life

in enjoying alone-time

in having too much alone-time

in having to deal with mamagals and mamarus

in a foreign city without friends or family I can completely trust

in my fantasies

30 POUNDS

2011-02-17T08:48:00.001-08:00

30 freaking pounds overweight. This is not good. I must stop eating McDo's, KFC's and BK's large fries, burgers and what-nots. Ergo, I must stop being too happy. Goodness, I hate growing up.

Q's

2011-02-09T17:17:00.000-08:00

Kaya ko pa ba talaga?

Gusto ko ba talaga ito?

Matapang ba talaga ako?

Magaling ba talaga ako?

Ano ba talagang gusto ko?

Bakit parang lalo lang akong namamatay unti-unti araw araw?

May kahihinatnan ba yung pag-eeffort ko?

Up in the equator..

2010-12-18T18:12:00.002-08:00

And here I am. A few months ago I wouldn't have imagined that I will be in the middle of a melting pot, hearing all kinds of languages from all over the world. That I am here, not just on vacation, but to stay and work is not just surprising but completely mind-blowing. I didn't think that I have the courage to withstand being away from family and friends and from the comfort of my former job in Manila but apparently, I kicked royal asses in that department. For one month a half, at least, I did and still at it.

So far, the first few weeks are not so bad, and not so good either. For the first time in forever, I lived in two different households, in a span of two months. The worst part is I'm thinking of moving again though I'm still not sure and I still have the option to wait out and stay. My job? Not so stellar, my performance in it and the situation, but I didn't come here to sit around and enjoy the sceneries anyway. I still have a year and 10 months and I am more than willing to take the punches aimed my way in this area.

For now, I can't say that I'm doing good because my grandma just passed away last week and I can't be with family at the moment. I just comfort myself with the thought that she is now in a better place and she finally got the rest that she has been wanting for the past few years.

And this will not be the end of it as I've barely started. I know there's more to come. This time though, I'll try not to be the wide-eyed, naive bumpkin from the greeneries but the kick-ass and tough girl that this country is teaching me to become.

UP, UP, I go

2010-09-27T18:26:00.000-07:00

Forward, forward, I go.

Why now?

Why the hell not?

I don't know. I guess I'm just growing up and starting to think of things more important than me. And even though I'm scared witless of what can happen tomorrow, I've donned my steel armor, I'm more than ready for my battlefield. :)

Drama Queen

2010-09-23T20:04:00.000-07:00

Today I realized that I want a dad who swears a lot, belch loudly, pick his nose, fart uncontrollably... and I will still love him like my giant duck stuffed toy because of all that and the fact that he will stand up to any guy who messes with me, hug me during bad days, and treat me like his little girl forever (now I sound like a wound-up tween).

But then again, I don't always get what I want.

2010-09-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

In times like this, it would be really nice to have my mom around. Or even just my room and a couple of DVDs to soothe me and to prevent me from throwing whatever comes handy and swearing.

Surprisingly, the rage subsided almost completely. I'm just left torn between proving my worth or getting a fresh start. At the rate things are going, I'm wanting a clean slate. But what I want, I'm not gonna get that easily.

Lit

2010-09-08T20:09:00.001-07:00

As soon as a friend introduced Nora Roberts and I learned of Neil Gaiman and Stephen King, I forgot my first love: poems. Here's one by Sara Teasdale:

But Not To Me

The April night is still and sweet
With flowers on every tree;
Peace comes to them on quiet feet,
But not to me.

My peace is hidden in his breast
Where I shall never be,
Love comes to-night to all the rest,
But not to me.

2010-09-08T01:07:00.000-07:00

One hour ago, I was terribly conflicted. Now, I'm just plain tired but nonetheless resolute in my decision. I'm taking this step by step and if, after I lay out my side they still want to take me on, then I'll be letting what I've come to love go. All this because I'm more than ready for the next chapter, the bigger challenge. And along with this anticipation, attached is the hope that I stick with what is in store for me. I'm dead tired of having to settle with what's readily available and I'm getting too old for fleeting interests. I'm so ready to fall in love. :)

God sure has a sense of humor

2010-09-06T20:11:00.000-07:00

Just when I thought I was just waiting for the right gush of wind so I can take my flight, things happened to remind me to think it over and slow down. I was SO positive that everything is going the way I planned then suddenly, when I was so blissful and my defenses were down, piles of debris fell down and blocked my path. Now, I'm once again in a rut, unsure of whether to trudge forward or walk sidewards.

BUT I am still hopeful. Yes, I know hope can paralyze you into standing still and just wait for things to fall into place but when you're wildly grasping for something to hold onto, hope is the only thing left. So I'm still hoping that everything will go well and will also put another plan into action.

Reaching my threshold

2010-08-27T01:47:00.000-07:00

Tired of dealing with pumped up male egos. God help me hold on to my sanity.

Bakit ba kasi ang yabang nitong kausap ko?!

WAITING

2010-08-25T19:56:00.000-07:00

SUCKS, PERIOD.

EXCITED :)

2010-08-24T18:50:00.000-07:00

Currently holding out for something. And I am just so excited to know everything in store for me. Can't barely sit still! :)

Anticipation

2010-08-18T19:20:00.000-07:00

IS this it? Hoping this interview will come through just fine. I've been doing this for MONTHS and frankly, I'm getting a bit tired of the same routine of working myself up over it then finding myself hanging out of nowhere, without any word of whether I passed or stunk big time.

SO if this is really for me, then so be it. Universe, let this not be a waste of my time. :)

2010-08-17T22:10:00.000-07:00

Because of a lot of things, I noticed that my reading list have been growing way too long. To add insult to injury, I bought books that are not part of the list. And furthermore, I want to add Jonathan Franzen's Freedom to it. Goodness, where to start?

Way Too Negative ME

2010-08-17T18:47:00.000-07:00

Re-reading my previous posts and noticed that most entries are either gloomy or angry. And I totally forgot that I used to love writing stuff down. So from now on, I'll try to be happy about small things and write about them. Oh-kay, probably I'll just start tomorrow. ;)

Flutterbys in my stomach...

2010-08-17T00:50:00.001-07:00

Whenever I walk past you. AGAIN. I thought I got over this high-school-y thing back when you started checking "babies" out. Then it was all disgust and indifference. And now sadly, I'm back to square one. More walks for my dog starting tonight, I guess. =p

HITTING A HUGE R-U-T

2010-08-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

One minute I was in the clouds and now, I'm back in the gutters. Such is my tolerance for energy-boosts.

WHEN WILL I MOVE FORWARD????

Crime and suspense

2010-08-03T18:56:00.000-07:00

My newest addiction, Criminal Minds! Delving into the mind processes of heinous criminals are proving to be fascinating. I'll elaborate on this soon as I can.

STAYING...

2010-08-01T19:37:00.000-07:00

POSITIVE! Letting the positive energy in...

Channeling my energy

2010-08-01T19:16:00.000-07:00

into something very exciting. But then again, will I take this on? Is this a better path for me?

I envy some of my friends and colleagues who can afford to take a risk. In my current state, I don't think I can be brave to take the next step without making sure that I'll land safe.

But just the same, I will never see what's on the other side of the mirror without walking into it.

What will I choose?

Somebody's Single. Again. :)

2010-07-28T19:54:00.000-07:00

Eh ano naman sa 'kin ngayon? Gusto ko lang naman mangiti, anu bang masama dun? X)

So my eye-candy is once again, piling up. Keep 'em coming... Haha :)

MUST WATCH

2010-07-28T19:52:00.000-07:00

Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

and Inception. SOON! Or I'll go crazy.. :(

CALL ME :)

2010-07-28T19:29:00.000-07:00

Every day without a single call from "you" makes my resolve weaker. I really wish you'd call, even just to tell me that I didn't make it. But I'm fervently hoping that I'll make it through. :)

Misc:

It's been three days and I'm still listening nonstop to Aiza Seguerra's rendition of "I Miss You Like Crazy". Sad part, I really don't know who I'm missing. Pathetic.

PICK ME!

2010-07-28T02:13:00.000-07:00

I'll probably get a crick from having my fingers crossed since yesterday. After everything that happened, things look really better than where I am right now. I pray that I'm not leading myself on. Please, PICK ME? ;)

LSS

2010-07-28T01:54:00.000-07:00

"I know every mile will be worth my while,
When I go the distance I'll be right where I belong.."

Sana nag-review muna ako..

2010-07-27T18:42:00.000-07:00

Things to remember before stepping into the gaping earth: The latest SAP R/3 version is Enterprise Portal 7.0, before that was ECC 6.0. :)

To Excel

2010-07-27T18:41:00.001-07:00

One must love what one does.
So I must love what I'm doing...

Okay... I think I'll just look for other things to excel in. XD

Me :)

2010-07-27T18:39:00.000-07:00

"I must learn to love the fool in me the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries."

Self-love in the words of Theodore Isaac Rubin

Everyday Blahs

2010-07-21T19:31:00.000-07:00

It's not really the lack of inspiration.

I remember the boy

2010-07-21T19:29:00.000-07:00

Crystal clear. Like it happened yesterday. Like you happened to me all over again.

Bad that you were so typical. Good that I'm not a dreamy-eyed bimbo who couldn't see that you are just like the rest of your specie.

Bitteresa? No. I just hate it when you can still make me grin like a fool after so many years of absence.

Crazy about...

2010-07-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

I have the sterling reputation of a level-headed, jaded cynic. One look at his prowess in the pitch and his stunning eyes and I've turned into a mindless, screaming schoolgirl:

What's New?

2010-07-20T19:36:00.000-07:00

Nothing much. Except for some very unexpected thrills:

I am now officially a New Spanish National Football Team fan! (Thanks to Manang, I discovered a whole new batch of eye-candy)
Madly, deeply, sincerely in love with Spanish striker David Villa. Split three-way with Manang and Yani. I'll settle for anything, David. Anything.
I'm all booked for our Cebu-Bohol trip in October! Now all I have to do is pay-up Manang, save for the pocket-money. (Piece of cake, I just won't eat for 2 weeks straight.)
Energized with newfound knowledge in goal-setting, positivism, realism..
Yes, I'll keep on moving forward. :)

2010-04-22T00:52:00.000-07:00

Akala ko straightforward ako but everyone who knows me says different. And today, it feels really good to just say what's on your mind. To not veil your emotions and hind behind all kinds of bullshit. Tonight's sleep would be priceless, I bet.

The Bitter Lesson

2010-04-22T00:47:00.000-07:00

Emotions and friendship don't mean dick in business. I should carve this on my forehead and grow up.

2010-04-14T19:41:00.000-07:00

Tama nga ang patron saint kong si Samantha sa Sex and the City, "I love ME more."

2010-04-07T02:19:00.000-07:00

My mantra for today: "Comparisons are designed to make somebody fall short of the other's glory."

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the sentiment of trying to pump my enthusiasm. To challenge me to do things differently. And believe me, I was affected. I wanted to prove myself and show that I'm willing to change for the better.

But my weak side was affected in a different light. It's as if the inconsistencies in me that I was waiting to show has already made an appearance. A few days back, I asked God to show me a sign of whether or not I'm still where I'm supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to do. And after THAT conversation, I felt as though the great cosmic void is telling me to get the hell out. That this, what I'm doing 8 hours every day, is clearly not for me. And I'm scared spitless of what is beyond what became my comfort zone (shit, 2 years and I can't move my damn butt, palakpakan).

Now what mask shall I put on? The broad-minded, go-getter me or the human one?

The doctor is out

2010-04-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

Shutting everything and everyone, out. Now, I have more time to lurk. :)

Last night's read

2010-03-22T19:17:00.000-07:00

"Each time you happen to me all over again." - The Age of Innocence

Monday Blues

2010-03-14T22:56:00.000-07:00

Kung sino man ang nagsabing 2 days lang ang considered na weekends, pakilala n'yo sa 'kin para i-explain ko sa kanya 'yung disadvantages ng ginawa n'ya.

Kulang ang 2-day weekend ko. :( Akala ko kaya 'kong ilagay sa FB shoutout ko ang "Nothing beats a complete weekend." with smiley. Hindi pala.

Sana lang tumigil na 'yung replay ng Will and Grace sa utak ko para makapagtrabaho na 'ko. NGAYON NA.

Blah again

2010-03-02T02:06:00.000-08:00

These are one of the very few times that I'm owning up to being sad and lonely. And by tomorrow, I'll be struggling back to happy all over again.

Level: DIFFICULT

2010-03-02T02:03:00.000-08:00

Why are my these past years the most confusing for me? Why can't ANYTHING be easy?

2010-02-21T21:32:00.000-08:00

Magaling. Bravo. Hindi kasi ikaw 'yung gagawa kaya ok ka mag-suggest eh. Iba ka...

'Di Mapagsidlang Kaligayahan

2010-02-21T21:21:00.001-08:00

Excited ka na naman? 'Wag mo na 'kong idamay teh kung ayaw mong masaktan. :)

Grrr

2010-02-21T21:19:00.001-08:00

'Pag nga naman problema, sa 'kin talaga ang bagsak 'di ba? Go me! Ang galing ko, shet na 'yan.

Q's

2010-02-18T00:56:00.000-08:00

Am I where I'm supposed to be? Am I who I think I must be?

1 up!

2010-02-18T00:53:00.000-08:00

I can look at you blankly without faltering now. Yehey! 1 step forward for me!

2010-02-15T21:56:00.000-08:00

The past year's events (and the past few months'..) made it so difficult for me to be happy. But thank God for these people...

Blah blah

2010-02-15T21:51:00.000-08:00

There are days when all you want to do is curl up in a ball and shut the rest of the world out. And doggone it, I've been having them for weeks now... Can someone please, give me a break?

Blah

2010-02-15T21:40:00.000-08:00

I wasn't looking for anything but I saw you. And now, you're making me yearn for something I shouldn't be thinking about...

Lesson in Life, Part II

2009-12-13T18:24:00.000-08:00

Am I sourgraping? No. I'm just facing the ugly reality.

2009-12-01T18:33:00.000-08:00

I am dragging my feet when I should be running on full speed, straight on to you.

2009-11-16T23:31:00.000-08:00

A few weeks from now, I'll be missing you. Badly.

Versus

2009-11-16T23:22:00.000-08:00

I chose character over lineage when I got the love of my life (my dog, Bella). And I'll choose it again. So I'm not really "just settling" when I picked the other one over the obviously better one, I actually made the perfect choice.

Biding my time..

2009-11-15T18:58:00.000-08:00

Times like this, the only thing that keeps me sane is the DNE's credo: "Good things come to those who wait." So I'm staying put, do my thing, and wait for the perfect time to do another move.

hmmm

2009-10-27T19:52:00.000-07:00

You make me wanna giggle all day long. XD

Can't resist the drama

2009-10-22T20:20:00.000-07:00

As Abby would always remind me, you are one big ILLUSION.

Not good, not good at all

2009-10-22T20:12:00.000-07:00

All I wanted was for you to glance my way, and look at me.

Emo

2009-10-22T20:11:00.000-07:00

These emotions can make an artist out of my capitalist brain.

rainy saturday

2009-09-25T23:32:00.000-07:00

Raining really hard today. Though we are stuck in the office, waiting for flood waters to die down (die down?!), I am truly grateful because we are not one of the thousands stuck in the road for hours. And I just heard that the street I'll be passing by on my way home is waist-deep in flood water. To all people who did not fare as well, let's just pray that casualties will be minimal and our family and friends are safe.

Don't Care

2009-09-15T20:23:00.000-07:00

From now on, I'll post as freely as I can. To hell with what people might or might not say or think. This is my personal space and I'm free to say whatever I want to say whenever I want to say it.

Who Do I Miss the Most?

2009-08-14T20:09:00.001-07:00

Miss ko na 'yung mahahabang kwentuhan about everything and nothing. Miss ko na din yung pagtotolerate niya ng weirdness ko. Miss ko na ding makinig sa mga kuwento nya about her lovelife.

Pati yung mga notes na pinapass nya during class. And her scathing remarks about people we both dislike.

I know I haven't been a good friend as she was to me. But I hope I can make it up to her, soon.

I Miss You, Kiji!

Message to a Loved-One

2009-07-03T20:03:00.000-07:00

I miss you. It has been 2 years since we last saw each other. And that one last time, you were the last person I would like to see.

What happened was really difficult, not just for me but for the people closest to my heart, as well. We may have moved on, but we are cursed to never forget. One moment I was this trusting girl who looked up to the two of you with pride, then the next, I don't know who to trust anymore. You (and hmm) were the two most admirable men in my life, my knights in shining armor. I can still remember how you patiently taught me in subtracting decimals and turning them to fractions. And after one life-altering moment, a very rude awakening, I was all grown-up wallowing in the twisted life adults are living. And I hated both of you so much.

Now, nothing about what transpired seem to matter. We may never know what the truth was. Or even who instigated what. For me, it simply doesn't matter. Trust was lost, it can never be regained but we needed to move on. Or go crazy. So we chose to forgive and face the fact that whatever happens, we still need to stick with the family God has given us.

You were the big brother I never had. You made me realize how good it felt to have someone come into my rescue. Even just to fight my battles against numbers or defend myself against the vicious sting of mama's broom (her favorite deterrent at the time to a sassy mouth). I just wish that fate would be kind enough to make our paths cross again. And when that time comes, I wish we can somehow get back even a glimmer of what we lost, if not all. Be safe always. Kat

Isang usapang BO-MALABS

2009-06-22T03:11:00.000-07:00

Ang kwento: A client e-mailed regarding the new contact person for billing. Being our company's middle man, I relayed the info to our accounting personnel. Our conversation went exactly like this:

ME: hi jannet... got d new billing POC for ?
JANNET: mali yun date nya dun, april 24
ME: saan? sa email?
JANNET: thanks

Wahahaha! I suh-wear Jannet ang linaw natin! Ang linaw-linaw! Ang sarap mong ibili ng kausap! =p

Champion Whiner

2009-06-16T22:41:00.000-07:00

Lemme whine for a bit (as if whining all day in person is not enough). Bad day all around. Woke up late and WORRIED. Found out that I have nothing else to wear and I have to iron my clothes pa. Oil splattered on me while cooking my baon. Arrived at office late. AGAIN. Candidate for interview cancelled at the last minute. Of course when this happens, the client is NOT happy. And who do they take it out on? ME. And then my boss came back from a client meeting when I really don't want to see her, EVER. Think I should quit, huh? Okee I'm done whining, back to building happiness again. =)

The Joys of Motherhood

2009-06-15T03:03:00.000-07:00

New pics of my baby!!! Juice ko, ilang sleepless nights because she wouldn't sleep unless sa tabi ng feet ko. But every tear and sweat shed over this creature is all worth it. Everything repaid everytime I come home to a wriggling ball of fur awaiting my return. Here she is:

inartihan pa ng brother ko

Originally, andyan ako pero ni-crop ni brotherloo kasi panget daw ('langya..)

Dolls, coffee and stale food binge, great company and Groupie moments!

2009-06-12T21:37:00.000-07:00

Many THANKS to Stephy for once again, giving us free tickets to the Pussycat Dolls concert last Thursday. Frankly, I'm not a big fan of the group, them being too sexy for my taste (hehe whatever Kat). But regardless of the heat, the huge crowd and super late notice, we had a superb time. Proof of claim:

with Yani sa banner #1

with Yani sa banner #2
after the concert #1 (in front of the globe-like chuva)after the concert #2 (in front of the stage)

But that's not the main highlight of the whole night, well at least not for me. (hihi) As we were trudging our way back to the mall area of MOA, passing by the VIP entrance, I glanced around hoping to catch even a glimpse of my uber-Idol, Chico and Delle (the latter being the VO for the concert's radio ad). The crowd made me realize that it is very impossible but lo and behold, while contemplating where to meet Stephy and Tring, there they were! Standing in front of the Clear board! Haay until now, I still can feel my embarrassment when we approached them! I was stuttering like anything and Yani said na may 2 seconds daw akong nag-lag while looking at Delle! Ngiii nakakahiya talaga! Hehe.. But they were uber-nice and they let us have our picture taken with them. Take note, kahit nasa gitna ng kalsada!

Y&K with C&D!

And after that, we just realized that they have other people with them! Hindi man lang kami nagpasintabi or anything.. Haay oh well, forgive us for being starstruck and all that.

We met Steph, Tring and all of Steph's officemates, eventually sa Guilly's to have dinner. We look happy here despite of the suuuper slow service. Buti na lang masarap yung sisig kahit medyo malamig na..

As usual, we (Yani and I) ended up going home at around 5AM! At hindi pa naubos ang kwento nang lagay na yan! Haha.. Pag dating ko pa, miss na miss na ko ng dog ko kaya ayun, I stayed awake till 10AM. Looking forward to our next FREEBIE. Hehe. Again, THANKS STEPHY! =D

Lesson in Life

2009-05-24T23:57:00.000-07:00

One thing I learned from our most recent company outing: Never drink too much in front of "cruel" officemates. And why? Let me count the reasons:

1. They'll make you say things you'll never dare say when you're sober
2. And while saying this, they're taking your picture and worst, will take a video.
3. Record your voice while expressing your unrequited crush for someone who has no business knowing about it.

O hindi ba ang bait nila? I'll never forget you guys. Seriously. You're making me want to swear never to stay 1 meter near any kind of alcohol. At 'pag may nakita akong naka-share na video, dadanak ang dugo. Tsaka galit na tayo. Hahaha.

Out of sorts

2009-05-21T19:57:00.000-07:00

yet again.. I don't know when it started but it grew worse and now I'm just S-A-D. I might laugh so hard at a joke but still, after it wore out, a vacuum forms and it sucks me right in. Now I'm in this black hole and the exit is not in sight. Once I manage to find my way out, I'll tell YOU all about it so that the next time another black hole is in sight, YOU can hold my hand real tight. Then I'll never be sad again because even if the current is real strong and we both got stuck, you'll always be there in the black hole with me. And maybe that's better.

Side A

2009-05-19T01:56:00.000-07:00

I was leafing through my brother's chord list and found this song from Side A. And HAYLAVEEET! Kahit na si Sharon Cuneta yung kasama nila (sorry, I'm not a big fan talaga). Ayan in-embed ko dito sa blog hehe. Kahit hindi tugma sa state of things ngayon, I love it pa rin. Enjoy!

The heart yearned

2009-05-14T00:28:00.000-07:00

I miss you. Miss you so badly. But not you, not really. I just miss having you around, you little punching bag. Pounding on somebody else is not as gratifying as stomping on your pride. And did I mention how I love it whenever I froth in the mouth with all the swear words I know because of you?

I'd die to see you again. See you writhe in pain at the sight of me whenever you remember. And you know what I like the most? When you spread malicious things about me because YOU can't face who you really are. Because then I know it's time for me to retaliate and inflict pain all over again.

Ahh, those were the days..

tara na, biyahe tayo! (Ilocos trip part 1)

2009-05-05T01:06:00.000-07:00

The sun crept out from under the clouds! Well at least for the duration of our Pagudpud-Vigan trip. But boy, it was not called "Pagud"-pud for nothing! We were on the road for 16-straight hours, peeing in between long stretches and napping twenty-forever. In short, naubos na lahat ng kwento ng buhay namin, wala pa din kami sa beach. LOL. But once we got ahold of what Ilocos Norte's shoreline has to offer, every ache ceased to appear. To sum it in one word, WHOA! For evidence:

Beautiful. It didn't rain as the forecasts said. The sun smiled and laughed with us. Originally, 4 lang dapat kami but as fate would have it, naging 7 kami! And Steph's officemates (Cheska, Bri, Niki and John) are UBER-FUN! I swear they're a hoot a minute! (Note: Reimbursible, word for the day haha) Here they are in their sun-kissed glory:

Sayang they have to leave din the next day because of work-matters so the 3 of us, me, Steph and Yani had to finish our trip by ourselves. Pero dahil na rin sa kakulangan sa time and takot sa madidilim na parts to Saud Beach, we just went on to see the infamous Windmills of Bangui. Though man-made, it did not lessen their magnificence. At talaga namang matatakot ka sa sobrang laki nila! (haha, I sounded a bit too eager there for a while)

steph in her aviator-kuno shot

steph, me and yani in our sariling-sikap-shot

me in my "happy camper" signature shot (with my ultra huge troso-like arms)

After that, I let the two pressure me into getting a tattoo (though temp lang naman) at buti na lang nagpa-pressure naman ako. I gots me a star-trail tattoo on the uppermost right-side of my back .

We spent the night rolling in the sand, star-gazing (though maliliit lang naman yung stars) at kwentuhan na naman. That's until a group of 3 (shall I say, "boys"? lol, im sure stephy would get what I'm saying) approached us to "befriend" us daw because they're new sa Pagudpud. Our initial reaction (though sa mind lang):

Me: Bago lang din kami, go bother somebody else.
Stephy: Not interested.
Yani: Matutulog na kami so go get.

So talk, talk, talk, and in the end, Steph had to give them her e-mail address na lang. We escaped to the confines of our room which made us,quoting Yani, "mga anak ng Diyos" because it is the owners' family quarters whenever they came to visit. Oh di ba, bongga? Hihi.

As Anne Curtis said in her commercial, "This is our best summer vacay," pause on the EVER part, we'll just replace it with "TO DATE" since we will be having quite a lot (please cosmic void..). I'm ending the first part of our Northern Sojourn trip here dahil sobrang haba na. hehe. Up next, step into the past in Vigan!

2009-05-05T01:02:00.000-07:00

Too tired to crawl to work yesterday so I opted to go this morning instead. Regardless of sleeping the whole day yesterday, I still crawled to work this morning. It's already 4 in the afternoon and I have finished only 5% of my workload so far.

I miss the beach. The breeze coming from the South China Sea. The thought that I'm at the edge of the biggest island in the Philippines. The feel of the white sand under my butt. Bagnet. Pinakbet. Longganisa de Iloco. Great company. Fun. Ilocos. Summer.

Okay, I'm having what Chico Garcia calls the Post-Holiday blues. And I don't think I'll be getting out of this pit for sometime so go call me a shrink. Or better yet, send me off to Bora, all-expense paid. LOL.

Blah

2009-04-19T19:31:00.000-07:00

There are unique days when you go down on your knees (o, ang isip ha), laughing your heart out. And there are also those days when all you want to do is curl up in a ball and rock yourself to oblivion. Today seemed to be the latter one.

Isip, Isip, Isip

2009-04-17T17:56:00.000-07:00

I can attribute the nakedness of my blog on two things: laziness and Facebook. At ngayon, may parating pang isa, PLURK!!! And all because I saw BB Gandanghari's Plurk account hihihi. Anyhoo, mag-vevent muna 'ko...

Tini-test na naman kasi ng corporate world what used to be my palpable patience. Starting off with the difficult times, na sinabayan ng world's most irritating boss <-- (Duwag! hihi). Pero sabi nga ng The Secret, you can conquer all these and emerge as the winner through your thoughts. So now, I'm thinking of the following and hopefully, will continue to believe in the midst of annoyance and strained patience:

1. 3-4 new consultants for April 09
2. 2-3 new clients for May 09
3. Peace of mind in the workplace (Na meron naman 'pag walang ume-AKA.)

And on this note, some more "desires of the heart" na hindi naman work-related:

1. Pursue with our Pagudpud-Vigan trip in utter bliss without going beyond the planned budget (ayun yun eh. hehe)
2. Lose 10 pounds, or 4 inches from my waistline before the said trip (Kaya ko 'to!)
3. Plan some more trips with my trigger-happy buddy, Stephy, kahit masakit sa ulo maghanap ng place at gumawa ng itinerary 2 weeks before our journey.
4. Shift my plane of everyday-thoughts from melancholia to happiness.

At madadagdagan pa ang post na 'to mamaya after 'ko gumawa ng report. hihi. Trabaho na!

where am i?

2009-03-26T02:39:00.000-07:00

I've been gone for a week from work, a month or so from blog-o-sphere, and a few months from myself. Where have all the sanity gone?

the new love of my life

2009-02-17T19:19:00.000-08:00

I've been walking this planet for 22 years and counting. All those years, I've never felt a stirring from the depths of my being for something so taken for granted before. I never felt the need to protect, to nurture and to give love freely without expecting anything in return; until now... And all because of her..
hahaha!! Naku ang drama pa! Ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin eh "I love Bella-kins!!". Kaka-adopt ko lang sa kanya last Sunday. According to her former owner, Mamasu, she's part-poodle (c/o dad) and part Japanese spitz (c/o mom). For me, she's a miracle (naku eto na naman...). She's 2 months-old (1.17 yrs. in doggie years) and currently practicing her pang-uto skills on me (which is surprisingly effective.. haayyy) And because of her kaya dog-fogged brain ako since saturday at ang main concern eh mag-shopping for her clothes and toys. Haayyy, the joys of motherhood. hehe. I'll stop right here at baka bukas pa 'ko matapos..

the brighter side of things

2009-02-09T01:09:00.000-08:00

Sa dami ng nangyayari ngayon, thinking positively is NOT a option. It should be an instinctive reaction to things negative. In a way, nakakagaan once nakasanayan, but for a natural-pessimist like moi, eh nasstress ako. Ikaw nga mag-try na i-control yung thoughts mo tingnan natin kung 'di ka ma-stress.

Pero I admit that in so doing, in all fairness naman to the cosmic void eh nasusunod yung mga gusto kong mangyari. :) Though minsan eh talagang mamamatay ka nang maaga kakaisip kung paano ka tatakas sa mga bagay na overwhelming. In the end, ipapakita naman sayo na "you did the right thing".

So thank you pa rin. =D

Ang Alamat ng Kiat-Kiat, bow

2009-02-03T00:22:00.000-08:00

Dahil sa kaadikan, bumili kami ni Shirl ng Kiat-kiat kay Kuya Fruits sa labas ng office. 100 peysows per kilo kaya hati kami, approximately tig-22 pieces each kami. Nung una ganito siya:

After 1 hour or so eto na cia:

Nauna si Shirl maka-ubos (dahil matakaw siya) dahil hanep ang metabolism nya. At ako naman? Sabi nila nakakalakas daw ng resistensya ang Vit. C, pero after ng pag-ngasab sa mga orangettes ayun sinipon pa ko ng bongga. Haayyy..

pictography

2009-02-02T17:10:00.000-08:00

wala na sanang proof, kasi hindi naman halata wait, bakit lumalapad ilong ko?...> kaso ang dami talagang instances na puro ganun na lang. so without further ado, me in my resplendent glory.. caught in the act while doing my favorite past time..

nang magpa-pizza c sa office

nang manlibre c stefy sa cafe juanita

nang tumanda ako ng isa na namang taon kasama ang mga kaibigan sa Good Earth G-belt (di pa ko nasarapan sa food sa lagay na yan..)

Nang-aano siya eh..

2009-02-02T16:49:00.000-08:00

naku bakit ba naman kasi ang lakas ng "inis factor" mo? bumuntong-hininga ka lang at narinig ko eh sira na araw ko... Ayan tuloy at kinailangan ko ang tulong ng friend kong si Chocolate Mallows para lang maka-move on sa inis...

dream, dream, dreeaaammm

2009-01-13T21:45:00.000-08:00

I should have written about this a few weeks ago when it was still fresh in my memory. I only told two people about it, my mom and my younger brother, and none else, so forgive me if I might be a little vague. This dream occurred during the 2-week Holiday last December, right after the endless holiday parties (a.k.a. multiple encounters with current ult crush hehe). It particularly caught my attention because I never had a dream (come true haha, so not..) quite so vivid. Usually, I couldn't remember the dream, even the characters and I always felt like being strangled. Strangely enough, this particular dream though still has that heart-thumping, blood-racing feel, I can remember every tiny detail. So here it is.

It began with the expectation of a wedding, my OWN wedding for crying out loud! (I don't even have a romantic something with anybody at ikakasal na ko?!? hahaha the fates must be kidding me...) Anyhoo, the first sequence was the day before the wedding and the "me" in the dream was, of course, overly nervous and a bit hesitant to proceed, what with the huge crowd looking on. Then it wore on AT day of the wedding na agad! (kamusta naman ang bilis ng mga pangyayari di ba?). I wore an uber-beautiful dress daw kaso naka-slippers lang ako (take note, slippers ito na rubber talaga, ano ba ito..kachaka-han). Most of my co-workers were there daw. Ayun at dumating ang groom na si dyan-dya-raran... (itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang Timmy Turner, naku hindi maganda ang kakalabasan nang mga ganyang pangalan..hehe). Dumating na nga c Timmy Turner at ang kanyang father PERO 3 HOURS late sila. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naghintay pa ko nang ganun katagal. PERO, PERO, PERO, hindi ito ang dahilan ng kainisan ko.

Eto yun: May mga dumating daw na mga Ateneans (na hindi ko din maintindihan kung bakit Ateneans...) AT nagpa-picture daw sa altar kasama ang aking supposedly-groom while I was LOOKING ON. Weird. So ayun, shempre yun na yung point daw na hindi na kinaya ng lola kaya sabay tayo ako at tumakbo palabas ng church. I passed by supposedly-father-in-law daw and said sorry sabay takbo ulit. Paglabas, biglang nasa labas na ko ng building ng Commerce sa UST at pumara ng taxi (Ayan, sabi na ngang magulo eh). Habang umaandar daw paalis yung taxi, there appeared my supposed-groom in a (pause for effect) FREAKIN' WHITE HORSE kasama ang aking friend na si Yani in her bridesmaid gown at hinahanap nila 'ko. Last shot was (parang rundown lang ng video footage) me looking back at nakita daw ako ni supposed-groom sa loob ng taxi but can't do anything kasi traffic. There ended my tumultuous dream.

So ayun, hindi na 'ko mapakali ever since. I've been trying to make sense out of it but because of my mind's limited capacity (super limited. kumbaga Celeron ang processor kung CPU ako..), hindi ko ma-decipher kung anong gustong sabihin ng dream na yun.

So kung sino man ang may knowledge on dream interpretation, please put me out of my misery and explain why I had that dream.

And to cap this off, hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit ako naka-Beach Walk sa kasal ko. Haayys.

i am g-i-d-d-y

2008-12-18T22:29:00.000-08:00

as i've never been so for the longest time. Nothing will be dimming it for a while. Not even the alcohol clogging my system for the past few days. Neither will the fact that the reason I'm feeling this way is overly pathetic.

And even if I want THINGS to happen, it never will. Buti na lang, I was saved by the practicality of my own mind. The practicality to view it as a "super-welcome distraction" to my once-bleak world. Eeeuw. Pero hindi nga, at least I know kung saan ako nakatayo at kung saan siya nandon. Andun sa Makati, at minsan andito. Hahahaha. Ayun kinikilig lang.

Salamat sa suporta guys (insert sarcasm). Kahit nakakahiyang lumabas ang pinakatatagong lihim ko, okay lang. Naka-kiss naman. Hahaha.

Haaayyy......

Kapitolyo Rendezvous with Stefy!

2008-11-28T20:12:00.000-08:00

At long last nai-post ko na din ang pics from our Cafe Juanita experience! Started out as Steph's curiosity when she passed by the place, then came research and a little hemming and hawing and we're off to Kapitolyo. And because of this, I'm now starting to look for places with the same feel. The ff are our pictures of the place, with ourselves included:

"selves" portrait

check out their collections of miniature houses! dami!!!

cafe juanita

Aside from the lush feel ng surroundings, masarap din yung food. I specially loved their "mediterranean" offerings. But a big no-no to their cheesecake. Too sour for my taste.

Anyways, our next stop: Ilustrado @ Intramuros and Cosa Nostra @ Malate.

Pre-Christmas Blues

2008-11-24T00:38:00.000-08:00

when will the dark days end? these past few months, the darkness have always found a way to make my days gloomy and...dark.hehe. parang somewhere around the corner, something is lurking to pounce on me and ruin my day. sure there are things that eventually cheered me up (i.e. the twilight series, Grey's anatomy, my super cute pamangkin, a new pair of shoes) but i was never content for long.

now that the season for cheer is already near (pag nag-rhyme pa ko, nakuuuu ewan ko na lang..hehe), i just want to wish this away. i don't want to be uncle scrooge resurrected in a female body and scare my tons of pamangkins and inaanaks with a bellow and a frown. so to brighten up my mood a little, here's my unconventional wish list for xmas 08:

1. widen my geographical outlook by going out of town with friends (yani and steph) or going on a solitary trip
2. ituloy ang christmas family reunion despite of weird occurrences. (i miss my cousins..)
3. better health conditions for pops who will be coming home for Christmas kasi may sakit cia.. =(
4. to be with my uber-cute pamangkin/inaanak every week.. the cutest baby who ever graced the planet with his existence (hehe biased). i swear i'll post his pictures if he will sit still long enough for me to take one. hehe.
5. to lose 10 pounds. (to prepare for my hosting stint on december 13.hehe)

and allow me to be a little conventional..
5. a white MacBook
6. a new phone (to replace my ancient 2 year-old v3i)
7. a hardbound copy of "Breaking Dawn"
8. an iPod Touch
9. shoes, shoes and shoes
10. quoting shirleen, bagella, bagella at marami pang bagella

and lastly, my uber-crush of 3-years who doesn't even know i exist. okay, a little pathetic scene for a while there...hehe.. and miraculously, it worked! i'm now all giddy.. just have to make this last for a few hours..

Welcome distraction

2008-11-10T01:31:00.000-08:00

Been sick for 5 straight days 2 weeks back. I kinda miss being tucked up with pillows in bed and spoiled rotten by mom. Unlike my two younger brothers (who by the way are way bigger than I am physically), I rarely get sick. I could probably blame my strong immune system but lo and behold, it failed me for 5 glorious days. Ayun, nagkaroon ako ng chance na magamit ang sick leave ko! hahaha, baad.

But now, back to reality, I realized that probably my body just missed being babied a bit. For as long as I can remember kasi, I'm the family "order-taker", mama's gofer, my brothers' tutor and sometimes, assignment and project maker and a whole lot more. So for five days, I was treated like the princess that I would never be. =)

2008-10-25T18:29:00.000-07:00

ngaks! i forgot to post my b-day special (wow huh parang tv show lang..hahaha).. and because of the ngaragan that will be happening in the next weeks, mukhang matatagalan pa before i can post my usual stuff and drama.. haayyy.. if only i can call Scotty to beam me up real fast, I will. Just thinking about everything coming up this week is enough for me to scurry and find a hole where i can hide in...

argh

2008-10-21T01:55:00.000-07:00

TRY THIS:
- drill a hole on your left temple (don't think about being too careful, just make sure that you did a nice hole)
- then insert a wooden rod as big as a pencil
- then feel around the head like you're stirring juice in a pitcher

and this is exactly how i'm feeling right now... and to think that I'll travel a minimum of an hour to get home (squeezed against ten million people in a packed MRT and LRT and 15 minutes walk from the station to our house.. ). great. fantastic.

oh yes...

2008-10-15T18:53:00.000-07:00

why am I happy today? Let me count the ways:

- Wala SIYA! morning, may meeting cia somewhere. At bumalik man ng afternoon, I'll be gone! woohoo! Hopefully, our paths wouldn't cross all throughout this super fine day..

- I listened to The Morning Rush's Top Ten from the first batch up till the last! yipee! One of those first times that I get to do this ever since listening to the radio in the morning was prohibited in the office. Nawawala daw kasi ang concentration. (whatever yaya..)

- At dahil sa Top Ten, I decided that starting today, I'm accepting the state I am in. Never had a special romantic someone and probably won't still have one in the near future. And I'm a-ok with it. I just have to face the truth that maybe it isn't for me at the moment. That probably I'm really better off alone. And I've got to be thankful for all the people who loved me even when I am being bitchy and difficult. Those people made me realize that romantic love is not the only thing that makes the world more beautiful and less difficult to deal with.

- And lastly, I'm happy because of all the things to look forward to (i.e. affordable vacation in November at Quezon Province, dinner with my friends next Friday, my shopping exped with Yani this Saturday, the Philippine premiere of Nights in Rodanthe and my nightly reading session of Stephen King's Dreamcatcher)

To cap all this self-love-fest off, quoting Leo Buscaglia:

"What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life."

Have a good day everyone!

blah

2008-10-15T02:59:00.000-07:00

I'm EXHAUSTED.Been going around doing work stuff, non-stop, from Monday till today. And I am yet anticipating the tiredness after my seven o'clock (that's pee-em, after the regular work-hours.. haayy) tomorrow. I know whining wouldn't help but what's a girl to do?!

injustice...

2008-10-10T00:15:00.000-07:00

I thought all along that people, especially those belonging in companies I’ve admired and respected because of their unbending and lofty principles, are like the organization they stand for. Little did I know that although they uphold the “rules” and have been “acting fair” around you for the months that you’ve known them, fairness is not always the name of the game. Somewhere along the way, the people you’ve respected will undo your little fantasy world where people have innate goodness. In short, they burst my bubble.

I know I could be overreacting or even a little over-affected, but I know I don’t like it when I am being messed with after conscientiously following the rules. I admit that there are times I am sloppy with things because of over-enthusiasm or too much excitement but I can say that in this case, I did everything a step higher than the usual.

So I can honestly say that I didn’t deserve what happened. YOU are very fortunate that you messed with somebody at the bottom rung of the ladder and a newbie (to add insult to injury). Being what I am (at the moment, at least), I don't have the power to bash you with a dos-por-dos on the head after what you did nor can I froth in the mouth with all the swear words I know. I just hope that the law of karma can find you just fine. Good luck.

huh?

2008-10-03T18:57:00.000-07:00

I don't know why whenever I hear this song, my insides turn to mush. Siguro kasi it described in detail what it is that I am currently in. Anyway, here's the song, Real Thing by Kalapana (which makes me miss my very good friend Yani, who will be celebrating her 7th year anniversary with boylet, Bochog.. congrats guys! )

Real Thing
Kalapana

Here comes the night
Once again
I'll be feeling lonely
Oh, if only things could work out like you plan
Where can love be
Tell me why it's so hard to find somebody
Who will stand by me
And take the time to understand
And show me love again

I want the real thing
Or nothing at all
I need someone that I can be sure will catch me
If I should fall
Someone who'll be there when I call
Then I'll know that it's the real thing
I want the real thing
To warm me each night
Someone to love me over and over
Making the future bright
Somebody who will make it all right
Just give me the real thing

Where is the moon?
Won't it smile
On just one more dreamer
Let your beams come down
And fill my empty room
Here comes the night
But if there's still a chance
That love can find me
I'll be here
Crossing my fingers

I want to know for sure
That I can feel secure
Knowing I've found an everlasting love
And once I get that under control
Then I won't let go

in a happy bubble on a monday morning =)

2008-09-21T19:23:00.000-07:00

kahit walang morning rush dahil on vacay leave c chico and delle, at wala akong maisip na isuot this morning, i'm still bubbling with happiness because of the following:

- the weather is super agreeable (wet, cloudy and gloomy skies..)
- wala c _______ pagdating ko and got the feeling that i won't be seeing her anytime soon. yahoo!! =)
- malapit na ang payday!
- just downed my second cup of coffee for the morning (usu 1 cup lang dahil sa dami ng gawa...)

at sana tuloy-tuloy until ths afternoon (or until evening para naman hindi maging "rainy-days -and-mondays-always-get-me-down" ang drama ko today..)

happy day!

Party-partyhan (August)

2008-09-19T20:55:00.000-07:00

Ayun, party siya. Para pala sa mga August celebrants in the office at para sa boss namin, (I won't mention who, kasi bawal.hehehe) who lives alone in his big beautiful house nung mga panahon na yun (aaww) kaya they decided to provide him with our charming company:

me and shirl

Shempre, picture-an agad pagdating. Kesehodang may konting drizzle, pose lang.

Habang nagluluto c Chrissy at gutom na kami:

Sa swingset (note to Jannet: ok ka lang? help!CPR naman dyan!):
Sa lanai, na we love so much kaya ayun, nag ala-Kamiseta ad theme kami:

Sa den na may super-comfy chair (check-out Shirl's chair) na gusto naming iuwi:
Sa living room:

Ulit with the whole gang naman:
At shempre pagkatapos dinner.. Inuman na!!!

wacky daw:

One bottle of tequila, vodka and a couple bottle of beers later (with me, Mama Sue and Chrissy super drunk dahil kami na lang ang natirang umubos ng tira-tira) the much awaited class picture of Class ITM 2008:

an UBER-HOT night

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One random night in the office, my friend Steph suddenly asked me if I'll be doing anything for the rest of the night and if I'm interested to see naked (well, half lang.. and we have to make do with what is there.. hahaha) hot guys . So I was left with two choices: Grey's Anatomy 3rd season marathon+myself or naked hot guys+2 best friends? Out of curiosity (daw), I picked the 2nd one. And off we went to Cosmo's Bachelor Bash! Gen Admish nga lang, but who cares? Anyways, I'll let the pictures tell the story of one hot night:

Habang naghihintay sa labas ng office ni Yani (take note: for 30 minutes na)
Insert caption: "Yani, pag yung mga lalaking yun, nag-bihis na sa sobrang tagal mo, magkalimutan na tayo!"

But of course, lumabas din cia after around 20 more minutes kaya nakaalis din kami sa wakas.
At nagpicture-an habang wala pang interesting (i.e. naked guys) sights:

yani and me

yani, me and stephy (taking advantage of the good lighting)
kami ulit ni yani
at surprise of all surprises, nakita namin si Joyee!!!! weee!!!

at nagpa-picture sa kanya na parang celebrity lang...
And without further ado, eto na sila... na walang sawang inokray at pinagtawanan naming tatlo... nice audiences..

At ito pa:.

Well, hindi naman lahat eh disappointing. May mga mangilan-ngilan na talaga namang nalaglag ang panga namin at tinilian ng di mabilang na babae at otherwise in the vicinity. But sad to say, wala ang usual names like Derek Ramsay and Marc Nelson (na bonggang bonggang hinintay ni Yani, kaso wala talaga...tsk tsk). Oh well, we'll just wait for the next year's, baka sakaling mas madami cla. Many thanks to Stephy, who, once again, provided the tix!!! I so love freebies. hehe =p