Yeah, I know I didn't make good on my promises, but I just can't resist posting about my latest addiction. Prepare your heartstrings and some tissues to while listening to this list of my newest favorite singer, Corrinne May.
1. Fly Away
2. Little Superhero Girl
3. Journey
4. Everything in its Time
5. and a lot more...
Will be posting about this SOON!
Monday, June 16, 2008
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
Coming Attraction
I've lots of things to catch up on in this blog. But I've also lots of things on my hands right now so the following are the posts that I'm currently working on and hopefully, launch by next week:
- My "dit" with Dudung in Greenbelt
- Things that I should be thankful for
- Updates on my superbly great life (whatever..)
- My thoughts on "singlehood"
- Plans, plans, plans...
- Lots of other surprises...
Really hope I can work this out by next week... ;-)
- My "dit" with Dudung in Greenbelt
- Things that I should be thankful for
- Updates on my superbly great life (whatever..)
- My thoughts on "singlehood"
- Plans, plans, plans...
- Lots of other surprises...
Really hope I can work this out by next week... ;-)
The Age of Boredom
The whole office's server was down yesterday ( and oh it was such a perfect opportunity to fill up my long-ignored blog! tsk tsk..), leaving me with nothing to do but backtrack all messages in my mail account's mailbox. While tinkering with my (drum roll please...) ...computer (gotcha! heheheh) yesterday, I found this long buried mail from my officemate. I wasn't even with the company yet when she sent it around. This deserves to be posted in the blog of a twenty-something creature ( I just think it weird calling myself woman, or lady or person...) so here it is.
"Being Twenty-Something"
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you
Stop going along with the crowd and
Start realizing
That there are many things about
Yourself that you
Didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder
Where you will
Be in a year or two, but then get
Scared because you
Barely know where you are now. You
Start realizing
That people are selfish and that,
Maybe, those
Friends that you thought you were so
Close to aren't
Exactly the greatest people you have
Ever met, and the
People you have lost touch with are
Some of the most
Important ones.
What you don't recognize is that they
Are realizing
That too, and aren't really cold,
Catty, mean or
Insincere, but that they are as
Confused as you. You
Look at your job... And it is not even
Close to what
You thought you would be doing, or
Maybe you are
Looking for a job and realizing that
You are going to
Have to start at the bottom and that
Scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You
See what
Others are doing and find yourself
Judging more than
Usual because suddenly you realize that
You have
Certain boundaries in your life and are
Constantly
Adding things to your list of what is
Acceptable and
What isn't. One minute, you are
Insecure and then the
Next, secure. You laugh and cry with
The greatest
Force of your life. You feel alone and
Scared and
Confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
Try and cling on
To the past with dear life, but soon
Realize that the
Past is drifting further and further
Away, and there
Is nothing to do but stay where you are
Or move
Forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder
How someone you
Loved could do such damage to you. Or
You lie in bed
And wonder why you can't meet anyone
Decent enough
That you want to get to know better. Or
Maybe you love
Someone but love someone else too and
Cannot figure
Out why you are doing this because you
Know that you
Aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups
Start to look
Cheap. Getting wasted and acting like
An idiot starts
To look pathetic. You go through the
Same emotions and
Questions over and over, and talk with
Your friends
About the same topics because you
Cannot seem to make
A decision.
You worry about loans, money, the
Future and making a
Life for yourself... And while winning
The race would
Be great, right now you'd just like to
Be a contender!
What you may not realize is that
Everyone reading this
Relates to it. We are in our best of
Times and our
Worst of times, trying as hard as we
Can to figure
This whole thing out.
"Being Twenty-Something"
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you
Stop going along with the crowd and
Start realizing
That there are many things about
Yourself that you
Didn't know and may not like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder
Where you will
Be in a year or two, but then get
Scared because you
Barely know where you are now. You
Start realizing
That people are selfish and that,
Maybe, those
Friends that you thought you were so
Close to aren't
Exactly the greatest people you have
Ever met, and the
People you have lost touch with are
Some of the most
Important ones.
What you don't recognize is that they
Are realizing
That too, and aren't really cold,
Catty, mean or
Insincere, but that they are as
Confused as you. You
Look at your job... And it is not even
Close to what
You thought you would be doing, or
Maybe you are
Looking for a job and realizing that
You are going to
Have to start at the bottom and that
Scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You
See what
Others are doing and find yourself
Judging more than
Usual because suddenly you realize that
You have
Certain boundaries in your life and are
Constantly
Adding things to your list of what is
Acceptable and
What isn't. One minute, you are
Insecure and then the
Next, secure. You laugh and cry with
The greatest
Force of your life. You feel alone and
Scared and
Confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you
Try and cling on
To the past with dear life, but soon
Realize that the
Past is drifting further and further
Away, and there
Is nothing to do but stay where you are
Or move
Forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder
How someone you
Loved could do such damage to you. Or
You lie in bed
And wonder why you can't meet anyone
Decent enough
That you want to get to know better. Or
Maybe you love
Someone but love someone else too and
Cannot figure
Out why you are doing this because you
Know that you
Aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups
Start to look
Cheap. Getting wasted and acting like
An idiot starts
To look pathetic. You go through the
Same emotions and
Questions over and over, and talk with
Your friends
About the same topics because you
Cannot seem to make
A decision.
You worry about loans, money, the
Future and making a
Life for yourself... And while winning
The race would
Be great, right now you'd just like to
Be a contender!
What you may not realize is that
Everyone reading this
Relates to it. We are in our best of
Times and our
Worst of times, trying as hard as we
Can to figure
This whole thing out.
Friday, May 23, 2008
Introduction #1
I'm letting myself go.
I'm 21, a super single professional young woman who's got everything ahead of her and all I've been doing, alone and otherwise, is mope and whine about things I am stuck with and things that I don't have. All I need to do is step out of the office, walk the streets of EDSA ( some people would probably take a shot on guessing what my work is, but you're wrong... so wrong...hahhaaha) or Makati and I complain about the heat or the traffic or the crowd or anything. I often find myself looking into magazines and I'm off to thinking,"What wasn't I born with this?" or "what does he see in her in the first place?" and lots of other stuff that irritates the living hell out of people I talk to (even myself, whenever I think about it). Pure waste of time, is what it is and I've been indulging myself for quite some time now. And the worst part is, it is making me awfully sad about myself.
I was never content. The only time I can recall being satisfied about anything was when my mom brought our ex-puppy (Sidney) home and I fell in love right then and there. But otherwise, can't think of any other instance. And I have the nerve to tell a confused friend to be content with what is happening now and not worry about the future. Even while writing this down, I kept on deleting, rephrasing and reviewing to my exact specifications and worry that people who might read this (if there would be any...) would find it lacking...or worse, boring. Imagine me while coping with a day's work and you might just go mad watching.
One balmy Sunday afternoon, while staring at my ceiling and contemplating how my room can be cleaned up without me moving (which is nigh too impossible), I received a text message from a friend about one common friend (how confusing can things get?) who already has a child and is currently trudging a difficult time. I can't help but be moved because I know this friend well and we used to spend time daydreaming about things that we will be doing in the future. And now, she probably has to wait and dream other dreams because of the sudden (but not unwelcome) addition in her life. I have lots of friends who are going through tough times and looking at it from their perspective, their worries are more serious than the ones I have running inside my head. Their problems are mostly beyond their abilities to solve or to get out of. All of which, fueled my fevered mind to thinking that, hey, I am not the worst person ever created and I've lots of stuff that I should be thankful for given the circumstances. And right now is as good a time as any to list it all down. I am actually way, way overdue on this, but better late than never, right?
I'm 21, a super single professional young woman who's got everything ahead of her and all I've been doing, alone and otherwise, is mope and whine about things I am stuck with and things that I don't have. All I need to do is step out of the office, walk the streets of EDSA ( some people would probably take a shot on guessing what my work is, but you're wrong... so wrong...hahhaaha) or Makati and I complain about the heat or the traffic or the crowd or anything. I often find myself looking into magazines and I'm off to thinking,"What wasn't I born with this?" or "what does he see in her in the first place?" and lots of other stuff that irritates the living hell out of people I talk to (even myself, whenever I think about it). Pure waste of time, is what it is and I've been indulging myself for quite some time now. And the worst part is, it is making me awfully sad about myself.
I was never content. The only time I can recall being satisfied about anything was when my mom brought our ex-puppy (Sidney) home and I fell in love right then and there. But otherwise, can't think of any other instance. And I have the nerve to tell a confused friend to be content with what is happening now and not worry about the future. Even while writing this down, I kept on deleting, rephrasing and reviewing to my exact specifications and worry that people who might read this (if there would be any...) would find it lacking...or worse, boring. Imagine me while coping with a day's work and you might just go mad watching.
One balmy Sunday afternoon, while staring at my ceiling and contemplating how my room can be cleaned up without me moving (which is nigh too impossible), I received a text message from a friend about one common friend (how confusing can things get?) who already has a child and is currently trudging a difficult time. I can't help but be moved because I know this friend well and we used to spend time daydreaming about things that we will be doing in the future. And now, she probably has to wait and dream other dreams because of the sudden (but not unwelcome) addition in her life. I have lots of friends who are going through tough times and looking at it from their perspective, their worries are more serious than the ones I have running inside my head. Their problems are mostly beyond their abilities to solve or to get out of. All of which, fueled my fevered mind to thinking that, hey, I am not the worst person ever created and I've lots of stuff that I should be thankful for given the circumstances. And right now is as good a time as any to list it all down. I am actually way, way overdue on this, but better late than never, right?
Friday, April 18, 2008
Bone-deep Exhaustion
hahaha...
and the weight that's bearing me down, unable to make me do anything that i have to do...
making me useless...removing any need to feel anything...
forcing me to forget everything that happened during the past month...
every single thing that i've had, and have thought of...
including the single thing that mattered, that kept me going...
and i can't do anything but stand back and just let it happen...
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