the new love of my life

I've been walking this planet for 22 years and counting. All those years, I've never felt a stirring from the depths of my being for something so taken for granted before. I never felt the need to protect, to nurture and to give love freely without expecting anything in return; until now... And all because of her..
hahaha!! Naku ang drama pa! Ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin eh "I love Bella-kins!!". Kaka-adopt ko lang sa kanya last Sunday. According to her former owner, Mamasu, she's part-poodle (c/o dad) and part Japanese spitz (c/o mom). For me, she's a miracle (naku eto na naman...). She's 2 months-old (1.17 yrs. in doggie years) and currently practicing her pang-uto skills on me (which is surprisingly effective.. haayyy) And because of her kaya dog-fogged brain ako since saturday at ang main concern eh mag-shopping for her clothes and toys. Haayyy, the joys of motherhood. hehe. I'll stop right here at baka bukas pa 'ko matapos..

the brighter side of things

Sa dami ng nangyayari ngayon, thinking positively is NOT a option. It should be an instinctive reaction to things negative. In a way, nakakagaan once nakasanayan, but for a natural-pessimist like moi, eh nasstress ako. Ikaw nga mag-try na i-control yung thoughts mo tingnan natin kung 'di ka ma-stress.

Pero I admit that in so doing, in all fairness naman to the cosmic void eh nasusunod yung mga gusto kong mangyari. :) Though minsan eh talagang mamamatay ka nang maaga kakaisip kung paano ka tatakas sa mga bagay na overwhelming. In the end, ipapakita naman sayo na "you did the right thing".

So thank you pa rin. =D

Ang Alamat ng Kiat-Kiat, bow

Dahil sa kaadikan, bumili kami ni Shirl ng Kiat-kiat kay Kuya Fruits sa labas ng office. 100 peysows per kilo kaya hati kami, approximately tig-22 pieces each kami. Nung una ganito siya:


After 1 hour or so eto na cia:


Nauna si Shirl maka-ubos (dahil matakaw siya) dahil hanep ang metabolism nya. At ako naman? Sabi nila nakakalakas daw ng resistensya ang Vit. C, pero after ng pag-ngasab sa mga orangettes ayun sinipon pa ko ng bongga. Haayyy..

pictography

wala na sanang proof, kasi hindi naman halata wait, bakit lumalapad ilong ko?...> kaso ang dami talagang instances na puro ganun na lang. so without further ado, me in my resplendent glory.. caught in the act while doing my favorite past time..

nang magpa-pizza c sa office

nang manlibre c stefy sa cafe juanita

nang tumanda ako ng isa na namang taon kasama ang mga kaibigan sa Good Earth G-belt (di pa ko nasarapan sa food sa lagay na yan..)

Nang-aano siya eh..

naku bakit ba naman kasi ang lakas ng "inis factor" mo? bumuntong-hininga ka lang at narinig ko eh sira na araw ko... Ayan tuloy at kinailangan ko ang tulong ng friend kong si Chocolate Mallows para lang maka-move on sa inis...

dream, dream, dreeaaammm

I should have written about this a few weeks ago when it was still fresh in my memory. I only told two people about it, my mom and my younger brother, and none else, so forgive me if I might be a little vague. This dream occurred during the 2-week Holiday last December, right after the endless holiday parties (a.k.a. multiple encounters with current ult crush hehe). It particularly caught my attention because I never had a dream (come true haha, so not..) quite so vivid. Usually, I couldn't remember the dream, even the characters and I always felt like being strangled. Strangely enough, this particular dream though still has that heart-thumping, blood-racing feel, I can remember every tiny detail. So here it is.

It began with the expectation of a wedding, my OWN wedding for crying out loud! (I don't even have a romantic something with anybody at ikakasal na ko?!? hahaha the fates must be kidding me...) Anyhoo, the first sequence was the day before the wedding and the "me" in the dream was, of course, overly nervous and a bit hesitant to proceed, what with the huge crowd looking on. Then it wore on AT day of the wedding na agad! (kamusta naman ang bilis ng mga pangyayari di ba?). I wore an uber-beautiful dress daw kaso naka-slippers lang ako (take note, slippers ito na rubber talaga, ano ba ito..kachaka-han). Most of my co-workers were there daw. Ayun at dumating ang groom na si dyan-dya-raran... (itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang Timmy Turner, naku hindi maganda ang kakalabasan nang mga ganyang pangalan..hehe). Dumating na nga c Timmy Turner at ang kanyang father PERO 3 HOURS late sila. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naghintay pa ko nang ganun katagal. PERO, PERO, PERO, hindi ito ang dahilan ng kainisan ko.

Eto yun: May mga dumating daw na mga Ateneans (na hindi ko din maintindihan kung bakit Ateneans...) AT nagpa-picture daw sa altar kasama ang aking supposedly-groom while I was LOOKING ON. Weird. So ayun, shempre yun na yung point daw na hindi na kinaya ng lola kaya sabay tayo ako at tumakbo palabas ng church. I passed by supposedly-father-in-law daw and said sorry sabay takbo ulit. Paglabas, biglang nasa labas na ko ng building ng Commerce sa UST at pumara ng taxi (Ayan, sabi na ngang magulo eh). Habang umaandar daw paalis yung taxi, there appeared my supposed-groom in a (pause for effect) FREAKIN' WHITE HORSE kasama ang aking friend na si Yani in her bridesmaid gown at hinahanap nila 'ko. Last shot was (parang rundown lang ng video footage) me looking back at nakita daw ako ni supposed-groom sa loob ng taxi but can't do anything kasi traffic. There ended my tumultuous dream.

So ayun, hindi na 'ko mapakali ever since. I've been trying to make sense out of it but because of my mind's limited capacity (super limited. kumbaga Celeron ang processor kung CPU ako..), hindi ko ma-decipher kung anong gustong sabihin ng dream na yun.

So kung sino man ang may knowledge on dream interpretation, please put me out of my misery and explain why I had that dream.

And to cap this off, hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit ako naka-Beach Walk sa kasal ko. Haayys.

i am g-i-d-d-y

as i've never been so for the longest time. Nothing will be dimming it for a while. Not even the alcohol clogging my system for the past few days. Neither will the fact that the reason I'm feeling this way is overly pathetic.

And even if I want THINGS to happen, it never will. Buti na lang, I was saved by the practicality of my own mind. The practicality to view it as a "super-welcome distraction" to my once-bleak world. Eeeuw. Pero hindi nga, at least I know kung saan ako nakatayo at kung saan siya nandon. Andun sa Makati, at minsan andito. Hahahaha. Ayun kinikilig lang.

Salamat sa suporta guys (insert sarcasm). Kahit nakakahiyang lumabas ang pinakatatagong lihim ko, okay lang. Naka-kiss naman. Hahaha.

Haaayyy......