Lesson in Life, Part II

Am I sourgraping? No. I'm just facing the ugly reality.

I am dragging my feet when I should be running on full speed, straight on to you.

A few weeks from now, I'll be missing you. Badly.

Versus

I chose character over lineage when I got the love of my life (my dog, Bella). And I'll choose it again. So I'm not really "just settling" when I picked the other one over the obviously better one, I actually made the perfect choice.

Biding my time..

Times like this, the only thing that keeps me sane is the DNE's credo: "Good things come to those who wait." So I'm staying put, do my thing, and wait for the perfect time to do another move.

hmmm

You make me wanna giggle all day long. XD

Can't resist the drama

As Abby would always remind me, you are one big ILLUSION.

Not good, not good at all

All I wanted was for you to glance my way, and look at me.

Emo

These emotions can make an artist out of my capitalist brain.

rainy saturday

Raining really hard today. Though we are stuck in the office, waiting for flood waters to die down (die down?!), I am truly grateful because we are not one of the thousands stuck in the road for hours. And I just heard that the street I'll be passing by on my way home is waist-deep in flood water. To all people who did not fare as well, let's just pray that casualties will be minimal and our family and friends are safe.

Don't Care

From now on, I'll post as freely as I can. To hell with what people might or might not say or think. This is my personal space and I'm free to say whatever I want to say whenever I want to say it.

Who Do I Miss the Most?

Miss ko na 'yung mahahabang kwentuhan about everything and nothing. Miss ko na din yung pagtotolerate niya ng weirdness ko. Miss ko na ding makinig sa mga kuwento nya about her lovelife.

Pati yung mga notes na pinapass nya during class. And her scathing remarks about people we both dislike.

I know I haven't been a good friend as she was to me. But I hope I can make it up to her, soon.

I Miss You, Kiji!

Message to a Loved-One

I miss you. It has been 2 years since we last saw each other. And that one last time, you were the last person I would like to see.

What happened was really difficult, not just for me but for the people closest to my heart, as well. We may have moved on, but we are cursed to never forget. One moment I was this trusting girl who looked up to the two of you with pride, then the next, I don't know who to trust anymore. You (and hmm) were the two most admirable men in my life, my knights in shining armor. I can still remember how you patiently taught me in subtracting decimals and turning them to fractions. And after one life-altering moment, a very rude awakening, I was all grown-up wallowing in the twisted life adults are living. And I hated both of you so much.

Now, nothing about what transpired seem to matter. We may never know what the truth was. Or even who instigated what. For me, it simply doesn't matter. Trust was lost, it can never be regained but we needed to move on. Or go crazy. So we chose to forgive and face the fact that whatever happens, we still need to stick with the family God has given us.

You were the big brother I never had. You made me realize how good it felt to have someone come into my rescue. Even just to fight my battles against numbers or defend myself against the vicious sting of mama's broom (her favorite deterrent at the time to a sassy mouth). I just wish that fate would be kind enough to make our paths cross again. And when that time comes, I wish we can somehow get back even a glimmer of what we lost, if not all. Be safe always. Kat

Isang usapang BO-MALABS

Ang kwento: A client e-mailed regarding the new contact person for billing. Being our company's middle man, I relayed the info to our accounting personnel. Our conversation went exactly like this:

ME: hi jannet... got d new billing POC for ?
JANNET: mali yun date nya dun, april 24
ME: saan? sa email?
JANNET: thanks

Wahahaha! I suh-wear Jannet ang linaw natin! Ang linaw-linaw! Ang sarap mong ibili ng kausap! =p

Champion Whiner

Lemme whine for a bit (as if whining all day in person is not enough). Bad day all around. Woke up late and WORRIED. Found out that I have nothing else to wear and I have to iron my clothes pa. Oil splattered on me while cooking my baon. Arrived at office late. AGAIN. Candidate for interview cancelled at the last minute. Of course when this happens, the client is NOT happy. And who do they take it out on? ME. And then my boss came back from a client meeting when I really don't want to see her, EVER. Think I should quit, huh? Okee I'm done whining, back to building happiness again. =)

The Joys of Motherhood

New pics of my baby!!! Juice ko, ilang sleepless nights because she wouldn't sleep unless sa tabi ng feet ko. But every tear and sweat shed over this creature is all worth it. Everything repaid everytime I come home to a wriggling ball of fur awaiting my return. Here she is:

inartihan pa ng brother ko

Originally, andyan ako pero ni-crop ni brotherloo kasi panget daw ('langya..)

Dolls, coffee and stale food binge, great company and Groupie moments!

Many THANKS to Stephy for once again, giving us free tickets to the Pussycat Dolls concert last Thursday. Frankly, I'm not a big fan of the group, them being too sexy for my taste (hehe whatever Kat). But regardless of the heat, the huge crowd and super late notice, we had a superb time. Proof of claim:

with Yani sa banner #1

with Yani sa banner #2
after the concert #1 (in front of the globe-like chuva)after the concert #2 (in front of the stage)

But that's not the main highlight of the whole night, well at least not for me. (hihi) As we were trudging our way back to the mall area of MOA, passing by the VIP entrance, I glanced around hoping to catch even a glimpse of my uber-Idol, Chico and Delle (the latter being the VO for the concert's radio ad). The crowd made me realize that it is very impossible but lo and behold, while contemplating where to meet Stephy and Tring, there they were! Standing in front of the Clear board! Haay until now, I still can feel my embarrassment when we approached them! I was stuttering like anything and Yani said na may 2 seconds daw akong nag-lag while looking at Delle! Ngiii nakakahiya talaga! Hehe.. But they were uber-nice and they let us have our picture taken with them. Take note, kahit nasa gitna ng kalsada!

Y&K with C&D!

And after that, we just realized that they have other people with them! Hindi man lang kami nagpasintabi or anything.. Haay oh well, forgive us for being starstruck and all that.

We met Steph, Tring and all of Steph's officemates, eventually sa Guilly's to have dinner. We look happy here despite of the suuuper slow service. Buti na lang masarap yung sisig kahit medyo malamig na..

As usual, we (Yani and I) ended up going home at around 5AM! At hindi pa naubos ang kwento nang lagay na yan! Haha.. Pag dating ko pa, miss na miss na ko ng dog ko kaya ayun, I stayed awake till 10AM. Looking forward to our next FREEBIE. Hehe. Again, THANKS STEPHY! =D

Lesson in Life

One thing I learned from our most recent company outing: Never drink too much in front of "cruel" officemates. And why? Let me count the reasons:

1. They'll make you say things you'll never dare say when you're sober
2. And while saying this, they're taking your picture and worst, will take a video.
3. Record your voice while expressing your unrequited crush for someone who has no business knowing about it.

O hindi ba ang bait nila? I'll never forget you guys. Seriously. You're making me want to swear never to stay 1 meter near any kind of alcohol. At 'pag may nakita akong naka-share na video, dadanak ang dugo. Tsaka galit na tayo. Hahaha.

Out of sorts

yet again.. I don't know when it started but it grew worse and now I'm just S-A-D. I might laugh so hard at a joke but still, after it wore out, a vacuum forms and it sucks me right in. Now I'm in this black hole and the exit is not in sight. Once I manage to find my way out, I'll tell YOU all about it so that the next time another black hole is in sight, YOU can hold my hand real tight. Then I'll never be sad again because even if the current is real strong and we both got stuck, you'll always be there in the black hole with me. And maybe that's better.

Side A

I was leafing through my brother's chord list and found this song from Side A. And HAYLAVEEET! Kahit na si Sharon Cuneta yung kasama nila (sorry, I'm not a big fan talaga). Ayan in-embed ko dito sa blog hehe. Kahit hindi tugma sa state of things ngayon, I love it pa rin. Enjoy!

The heart yearned

I miss you. Miss you so badly. But not you, not really. I just miss having you around, you little punching bag. Pounding on somebody else is not as gratifying as stomping on your pride. And did I mention how I love it whenever I froth in the mouth with all the swear words I know because of you?

I'd die to see you again. See you writhe in pain at the sight of me whenever you remember. And you know what I like the most? When you spread malicious things about me because YOU can't face who you really are. Because then I know it's time for me to retaliate and inflict pain all over again.

Ahh, those were the days..

tara na, biyahe tayo! (Ilocos trip part 1)

The sun crept out from under the clouds! Well at least for the duration of our Pagudpud-Vigan trip. But boy, it was not called "Pagud"-pud for nothing! We were on the road for 16-straight hours, peeing in between long stretches and napping twenty-forever. In short, naubos na lahat ng kwento ng buhay namin, wala pa din kami sa beach. LOL. But once we got ahold of what Ilocos Norte's shoreline has to offer, every ache ceased to appear. To sum it in one word, WHOA! For evidence:


Beautiful. It didn't rain as the forecasts said. The sun smiled and laughed with us. Originally, 4 lang dapat kami but as fate would have it, naging 7 kami! And Steph's officemates (Cheska, Bri, Niki and John) are UBER-FUN! I swear they're a hoot a minute! (Note: Reimbursible, word for the day haha) Here they are in their sun-kissed glory:


Sayang they have to leave din the next day because of work-matters so the 3 of us, me, Steph and Yani had to finish our trip by ourselves. Pero dahil na rin sa kakulangan sa time and takot sa madidilim na parts to Saud Beach, we just went on to see the infamous Windmills of Bangui. Though man-made, it did not lessen their magnificence. At talaga namang matatakot ka sa sobrang laki nila! (haha, I sounded a bit too eager there for a while)

steph in her aviator-kuno shot

steph, me and yani in our sariling-sikap-shot

me in my "happy camper" signature shot (with my ultra huge troso-like arms)

After that, I let the two pressure me into getting a tattoo (though temp lang naman) at buti na lang nagpa-pressure naman ako. I gots me a star-trail tattoo on the uppermost right-side of my back .


We spent the night rolling in the sand, star-gazing (though maliliit lang naman yung stars) at kwentuhan na naman. That's until a group of 3 (shall I say, "boys"? lol, im sure stephy would get what I'm saying) approached us to "befriend" us daw because they're new sa Pagudpud. Our initial reaction (though sa mind lang):

Me: Bago lang din kami, go bother somebody else.
Stephy: Not interested.
Yani: Matutulog na kami so go get.

So talk, talk, talk, and in the end, Steph had to give them her e-mail address na lang. We escaped to the confines of our room which made us,quoting Yani, "mga anak ng Diyos" because it is the owners' family quarters whenever they came to visit. Oh di ba, bongga? Hihi.

As Anne Curtis said in her commercial, "This is our best summer vacay," pause on the EVER part, we'll just replace it with "TO DATE" since we will be having quite a lot (please cosmic void..). I'm ending the first part of our Northern Sojourn trip here dahil sobrang haba na. hehe. Up next, step into the past in Vigan!

Too tired to crawl to work yesterday so I opted to go this morning instead. Regardless of sleeping the whole day yesterday, I still crawled to work this morning. It's already 4 in the afternoon and I have finished only 5% of my workload so far.

I miss the beach. The breeze coming from the South China Sea. The thought that I'm at the edge of the biggest island in the Philippines. The feel of the white sand under my butt. Bagnet. Pinakbet. Longganisa de Iloco. Great company. Fun. Ilocos. Summer.

Okay, I'm having what Chico Garcia calls the Post-Holiday blues. And I don't think I'll be getting out of this pit for sometime so go call me a shrink. Or better yet, send me off to Bora, all-expense paid. LOL.

Blah

There are unique days when you go down on your knees (o, ang isip ha), laughing your heart out. And there are also those days when all you want to do is curl up in a ball and rock yourself to oblivion. Today seemed to be the latter one.

Isip, Isip, Isip

I can attribute the nakedness of my blog on two things: laziness and Facebook. At ngayon, may parating pang isa, PLURK!!! And all because I saw BB Gandanghari's Plurk account hihihi. Anyhoo, mag-vevent muna 'ko...

Tini-test na naman kasi ng corporate world what used to be my palpable patience. Starting off with the difficult times, na sinabayan ng world's most irritating boss <-- (Duwag! hihi). Pero sabi nga ng The Secret, you can conquer all these and emerge as the winner through your thoughts. So now, I'm thinking of the following and hopefully, will continue to believe in the midst of annoyance and strained patience:

1. 3-4 new consultants for April 09
2. 2-3 new clients for May 09
3. Peace of mind in the workplace (Na meron naman 'pag walang ume-AKA.)

And on this note, some more "desires of the heart" na hindi naman work-related:

1. Pursue with our Pagudpud-Vigan trip in utter bliss without going beyond the planned budget (ayun yun eh. hehe)
2. Lose 10 pounds, or 4 inches from my waistline before the said trip (Kaya ko 'to!)
3. Plan some more trips with my trigger-happy buddy, Stephy, kahit masakit sa ulo maghanap ng place at gumawa ng itinerary 2 weeks before our journey.
4. Shift my plane of everyday-thoughts from melancholia to happiness.

At madadagdagan pa ang post na 'to mamaya after 'ko gumawa ng report. hihi. Trabaho na!

where am i?

I've been gone for a week from work, a month or so from blog-o-sphere, and a few months from myself. Where have all the sanity gone?

the new love of my life

I've been walking this planet for 22 years and counting. All those years, I've never felt a stirring from the depths of my being for something so taken for granted before. I never felt the need to protect, to nurture and to give love freely without expecting anything in return; until now... And all because of her..
hahaha!! Naku ang drama pa! Ang gusto ko lang naman sabihin eh "I love Bella-kins!!". Kaka-adopt ko lang sa kanya last Sunday. According to her former owner, Mamasu, she's part-poodle (c/o dad) and part Japanese spitz (c/o mom). For me, she's a miracle (naku eto na naman...). She's 2 months-old (1.17 yrs. in doggie years) and currently practicing her pang-uto skills on me (which is surprisingly effective.. haayyy) And because of her kaya dog-fogged brain ako since saturday at ang main concern eh mag-shopping for her clothes and toys. Haayyy, the joys of motherhood. hehe. I'll stop right here at baka bukas pa 'ko matapos..

the brighter side of things

Sa dami ng nangyayari ngayon, thinking positively is NOT a option. It should be an instinctive reaction to things negative. In a way, nakakagaan once nakasanayan, but for a natural-pessimist like moi, eh nasstress ako. Ikaw nga mag-try na i-control yung thoughts mo tingnan natin kung 'di ka ma-stress.

Pero I admit that in so doing, in all fairness naman to the cosmic void eh nasusunod yung mga gusto kong mangyari. :) Though minsan eh talagang mamamatay ka nang maaga kakaisip kung paano ka tatakas sa mga bagay na overwhelming. In the end, ipapakita naman sayo na "you did the right thing".

So thank you pa rin. =D

Ang Alamat ng Kiat-Kiat, bow

Dahil sa kaadikan, bumili kami ni Shirl ng Kiat-kiat kay Kuya Fruits sa labas ng office. 100 peysows per kilo kaya hati kami, approximately tig-22 pieces each kami. Nung una ganito siya:


After 1 hour or so eto na cia:


Nauna si Shirl maka-ubos (dahil matakaw siya) dahil hanep ang metabolism nya. At ako naman? Sabi nila nakakalakas daw ng resistensya ang Vit. C, pero after ng pag-ngasab sa mga orangettes ayun sinipon pa ko ng bongga. Haayyy..

pictography

wala na sanang proof, kasi hindi naman halata wait, bakit lumalapad ilong ko?...> kaso ang dami talagang instances na puro ganun na lang. so without further ado, me in my resplendent glory.. caught in the act while doing my favorite past time..

nang magpa-pizza c sa office

nang manlibre c stefy sa cafe juanita

nang tumanda ako ng isa na namang taon kasama ang mga kaibigan sa Good Earth G-belt (di pa ko nasarapan sa food sa lagay na yan..)

Nang-aano siya eh..

naku bakit ba naman kasi ang lakas ng "inis factor" mo? bumuntong-hininga ka lang at narinig ko eh sira na araw ko... Ayan tuloy at kinailangan ko ang tulong ng friend kong si Chocolate Mallows para lang maka-move on sa inis...

dream, dream, dreeaaammm

I should have written about this a few weeks ago when it was still fresh in my memory. I only told two people about it, my mom and my younger brother, and none else, so forgive me if I might be a little vague. This dream occurred during the 2-week Holiday last December, right after the endless holiday parties (a.k.a. multiple encounters with current ult crush hehe). It particularly caught my attention because I never had a dream (come true haha, so not..) quite so vivid. Usually, I couldn't remember the dream, even the characters and I always felt like being strangled. Strangely enough, this particular dream though still has that heart-thumping, blood-racing feel, I can remember every tiny detail. So here it is.

It began with the expectation of a wedding, my OWN wedding for crying out loud! (I don't even have a romantic something with anybody at ikakasal na ko?!? hahaha the fates must be kidding me...) Anyhoo, the first sequence was the day before the wedding and the "me" in the dream was, of course, overly nervous and a bit hesitant to proceed, what with the huge crowd looking on. Then it wore on AT day of the wedding na agad! (kamusta naman ang bilis ng mga pangyayari di ba?). I wore an uber-beautiful dress daw kaso naka-slippers lang ako (take note, slippers ito na rubber talaga, ano ba ito..kachaka-han). Most of my co-workers were there daw. Ayun at dumating ang groom na si dyan-dya-raran... (itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang Timmy Turner, naku hindi maganda ang kakalabasan nang mga ganyang pangalan..hehe). Dumating na nga c Timmy Turner at ang kanyang father PERO 3 HOURS late sila. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naghintay pa ko nang ganun katagal. PERO, PERO, PERO, hindi ito ang dahilan ng kainisan ko.

Eto yun: May mga dumating daw na mga Ateneans (na hindi ko din maintindihan kung bakit Ateneans...) AT nagpa-picture daw sa altar kasama ang aking supposedly-groom while I was LOOKING ON. Weird. So ayun, shempre yun na yung point daw na hindi na kinaya ng lola kaya sabay tayo ako at tumakbo palabas ng church. I passed by supposedly-father-in-law daw and said sorry sabay takbo ulit. Paglabas, biglang nasa labas na ko ng building ng Commerce sa UST at pumara ng taxi (Ayan, sabi na ngang magulo eh). Habang umaandar daw paalis yung taxi, there appeared my supposed-groom in a (pause for effect) FREAKIN' WHITE HORSE kasama ang aking friend na si Yani in her bridesmaid gown at hinahanap nila 'ko. Last shot was (parang rundown lang ng video footage) me looking back at nakita daw ako ni supposed-groom sa loob ng taxi but can't do anything kasi traffic. There ended my tumultuous dream.

So ayun, hindi na 'ko mapakali ever since. I've been trying to make sense out of it but because of my mind's limited capacity (super limited. kumbaga Celeron ang processor kung CPU ako..), hindi ko ma-decipher kung anong gustong sabihin ng dream na yun.

So kung sino man ang may knowledge on dream interpretation, please put me out of my misery and explain why I had that dream.

And to cap this off, hindi ko pa rin maintindihan kung bakit ako naka-Beach Walk sa kasal ko. Haayys.