ngaks! i forgot to post my b-day special (wow huh parang tv show lang..hahaha).. and because of the ngaragan that will be happening in the next weeks, mukhang matatagalan pa before i can post my usual stuff and drama.. haayyy.. if only i can call Scotty to beam me up real fast, I will. Just thinking about everything coming up this week is enough for me to scurry and find a hole where i can hide in...

argh

TRY THIS:
- drill a hole on your left temple (don't think about being too careful, just make sure that you did a nice hole)
- then insert a wooden rod as big as a pencil
- then feel around the head like you're stirring juice in a pitcher

and this is exactly how i'm feeling right now... and to think that I'll travel a minimum of an hour to get home (squeezed against ten million people in a packed MRT and LRT and 15 minutes walk from the station to our house.. ). great. fantastic.

oh yes...

why am I happy today? Let me count the ways:

- Wala SIYA! morning, may meeting cia somewhere. At bumalik man ng afternoon, I'll be gone! woohoo! Hopefully, our paths wouldn't cross all throughout this super fine day..

- I listened to The Morning Rush's Top Ten from the first batch up till the last! yipee! One of those first times that I get to do this ever since listening to the radio in the morning was prohibited in the office. Nawawala daw kasi ang concentration. (whatever yaya..)

- At dahil sa Top Ten, I decided that starting today, I'm accepting the state I am in. Never had a special romantic someone and probably won't still have one in the near future. And I'm a-ok with it. I just have to face the truth that maybe it isn't for me at the moment. That probably I'm really better off alone. And I've got to be thankful for all the people who loved me even when I am being bitchy and difficult. Those people made me realize that romantic love is not the only thing that makes the world more beautiful and less difficult to deal with.

- And lastly, I'm happy because of all the things to look forward to (i.e. affordable vacation in November at Quezon Province, dinner with my friends next Friday, my shopping exped with Yani this Saturday, the Philippine premiere of Nights in Rodanthe and my nightly reading session of Stephen King's Dreamcatcher)

To cap all this self-love-fest off, quoting Leo Buscaglia:

"What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life."

Have a good day everyone!

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I'm EXHAUSTED.Been going around doing work stuff, non-stop, from Monday till today. And I am yet anticipating the tiredness after my seven o'clock (that's pee-em, after the regular work-hours.. haayy) tomorrow. I know whining wouldn't help but what's a girl to do?!

injustice...

I thought all along that people, especially those belonging in companies I’ve admired and respected because of their unbending and lofty principles, are like the organization they stand for. Little did I know that although they uphold the “rules” and have been “acting fair” around you for the months that you’ve known them, fairness is not always the name of the game. Somewhere along the way, the people you’ve respected will undo your little fantasy world where people have innate goodness. In short, they burst my bubble.

I know I could be overreacting or even a little over-affected, but I know I don’t like it when I am being messed with after conscientiously following the rules. I admit that there are times I am sloppy with things because of over-enthusiasm or too much excitement but I can say that in this case, I did everything a step higher than the usual.

So I can honestly say that I didn’t deserve what happened. YOU are very fortunate that you messed with somebody at the bottom rung of the ladder and a newbie (to add insult to injury). Being what I am (at the moment, at least), I don't have the power to bash you with a dos-por-dos on the head after what you did nor can I froth in the mouth with all the swear words I know. I just hope that the law of karma can find you just fine. Good luck.

huh?

I don't know why whenever I hear this song, my insides turn to mush. Siguro kasi it described in detail what it is that I am currently in. Anyway, here's the song, Real Thing by Kalapana (which makes me miss my very good friend Yani, who will be celebrating her 7th year anniversary with boylet, Bochog.. congrats guys! )

Real Thing
Kalapana

Here comes the night
Once again
I'll be feeling lonely
Oh, if only things could work out like you plan
Where can love be
Tell me why it's so hard to find somebody
Who will stand by me
And take the time to understand
And show me love again

I want the real thing
Or nothing at all
I need someone that I can be sure will catch me
If I should fall
Someone who'll be there when I call
Then I'll know that it's the real thing
I want the real thing
To warm me each night
Someone to love me over and over
Making the future bright
Somebody who will make it all right
Just give me the real thing

Where is the moon?
Won't it smile
On just one more dreamer
Let your beams come down
And fill my empty room
Here comes the night
But if there's still a chance
That love can find me
I'll be here
Crossing my fingers

I want to know for sure
That I can feel secure
Knowing I've found an everlasting love
And once I get that under control
Then I won't let go