Akala ko straightforward ako but everyone who knows me says different. And today, it feels really good to just say what's on your mind. To not veil your emotions and hind behind all kinds of bullshit. Tonight's sleep would be priceless, I bet.

The Bitter Lesson

Emotions and friendship don't mean dick in business. I should carve this on my forehead and grow up.

Tama nga ang patron saint kong si Samantha sa Sex and the City, "I love ME more."

My mantra for today: "Comparisons are designed to make somebody fall short of the other's glory."

Don't get me wrong, I appreciate the sentiment of trying to pump my enthusiasm. To challenge me to do things differently. And believe me, I was affected. I wanted to prove myself and show that I'm willing to change for the better.

But my weak side was affected in a different light. It's as if the inconsistencies in me that I was waiting to show has already made an appearance. A few days back, I asked God to show me a sign of whether or not I'm still where I'm supposed to be, doing what I'm supposed to do. And after THAT conversation, I felt as though the great cosmic void is telling me to get the hell out. That this, what I'm doing 8 hours every day, is clearly not for me. And I'm scared spitless of what is beyond what became my comfort zone (shit, 2 years and I can't move my damn butt, palakpakan).

Now what mask shall I put on? The broad-minded, go-getter me or the human one?

The doctor is out

Shutting everything and everyone, out. Now, I have more time to lurk. :)